If...I passed away.

如果有一天，我就这样死去了，我希望你会哭。

希望你哭，是因为我了解你所承受过的痛苦，我不希望你把所有的事都收藏在心里，那会更痛苦的。

最近不相熟的朋友去世了，我知道你心里很难受，但是却死撑。如果换成是我去世，你一定会更伤心的。我不想看见你这个样子，想哭就哭吧，正如我跟你说过的，不用在我面前逞强，我会一直陪着你的。

或许我还带一点自私吧，如果你因为我去世而哭，至少我知道你是在意我的，你是关心我的。

你所说的因果循环，如果真的存在，我希望都是我欠你的，不管几辈子。

The night, we kissed

I still remember the night, 7th October, that we kissed. That is somehow the best moment for me since few years ago. However, that moment has only gave you the feel of guilty. I understand you, and I dont want to destroy your current life. How much I wish that we can just stop at that moment. Maybe, we are just in the wrong timing. I think, I have fall in love to you.